Good morning my friends as I was talking yesterday to my friends....I wondered about the backslider. I will do more on that topic soon. I began to think on myself though, I got saved at 17 years old and did backslide. I went back into the world, but never stopped believing God and during the years "in the world" God honoured those times when I was in trouble and cried out for help. He answered my prayers at those times. But my life was not easy. He "arrested" me when he was ready at age 26. I went through some situations that broke me and only God could have helped me through. That is where I had a true God encounter, where I was convicted of sin and repented. Before at 17 I was sorry about sin, but had never really turned away from sin and the world and been "born again". I then remember seeking God desperately and when I was filled with the Holy Spirit, I cried for 3 days as the glory of the Lord rested upon me heavily. I gave up all to live a truly surrendered life in God's service. I was different as of then, my desires changed, my heart changed, I became passionate about the lost and the dying, I became God's servant, and he became my all. I began to think as I went to bed last night. Could I ever go back? I can't. It has become a part of me to walk and talk with God. My whole being is entrenched in God's love and kept by his grace. I belong to God, I am my beloved's and he is mine. I may sin, but am never comfortable in that place and quickly repent. God's word has moulded my life. I began to think 🤔 very carefully, the only thing I fear now is really being away from God. I would be like a flower faded and dying. Truly now that I do so much gardening, I understand the instruction of staying connected to the vine. Without God I would truly wither, dry up and die. Lord have mercy, help us to stand by your grace and mercy no matter what we face - there is no going back. Help us to stay connected to the vine.
The last words I said to God last night, were I would rather die than live without you Abbah, you are in my heart, my soul, my life, you are my everything. I then fell asleep
I woke up this morning and these were the words of love that God spoke to me:
Zechariah 2:8b
For he who touches you, touches the apple of His eye
I have shared here the link for an exegesis on those words.
Take the time to read, it will truly bless you
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